The Gloss Has Washed Away

Things are changing, faster than I thought possible.

I'm afraid and anxious and excited and happy and angry all at once.

I'm approaching the culmination of so many decisions I have made, some without thinking, others after careful deliberation.

Here goes nothing.

I'm Still Waiting

Something potentially life changing is going to take place in mere days and yet...

...I don't feel it.

Exaggerating the Barrier Between Who I Am, and Who I Want To Be.

1. I'm thrilled.

2. I'm terrified.

3. I'm lonely.

4. I'm upset.

5. I think I love the way I do just to be distracted from my sadness.

Erase Me, I'm Done

1. I lasted 5 hours in the quiet and managed to make it through alive.

2. Dependency lacks the scare factor it once had.

3. Change your tactics.

4. I simply can't leave it at this.

5. Prime factors just feel more stable.

And I Don't Really Even Care If I'm Alone Now

Wallowing in misery is NOT HEALTHY.

Oh, well.