We Will Take Our Dreams Straight to the Grave

"She thinks she can warn the stars. /
A writer is essentially a spy. /
Dear love, I am that girl."

~from Anne Sexton's poem, The Black Art

Here's How It Sounds

"Be in love with your life"

-Jack Kerouac, Belief and Technique for Modern Prose

I Don't Think Contrast Is A Sin

If this is what you're ashamed of,

then I just might be ashamed of you.

And Now You've Come Along

I'm still getting used to all of this.

I Won't Be Around Here For Too Very Long

Me: I love you so much, Id never do anything that you didnt want me to
Them: i love you too, and theres not much i wouldnt want you to do
Them: but i'd be like totally heartbroken if you cheated on me. but i dont think you would ever do that.
Them: i wouldnt love you any less. but i'd be crying 24/7 for the rest of my life.
Me: thats something I never want to do. But you see my problem right? I suck at resisting. But I swear Id want to kill myself if I cheated on you.
Me: I wouldnt be able to stand myself, and I'd hate what you might think of me, even if you didnt say it
Me: so i dont think Id have the guts to do it

You Ask Me What It Feels Like...I Say That I Don't Know Better

Why do I always end up attracted to the self-destructive types? It's a pattern I know I should break but not just yet...I want to have my story.

I'm Not Selling Cheap

"We go to art to learn the unlearnable, experience the / unexperienceable."

-Dean Young

...And The Sky Is Deeper Than A Dream

"Make up your minds that happiness depends on being free, and freedom depends on being courageous."

-Pericles

I'm Your Angel Undercover

1. Friends suck at being able to tell when you want them to give you advice, or simply, support you.

2. I've been a firm believer in "Nothing is unconditional" and now I'm faced with it.

3. I am aware now.

4. I think I'll put it in my vows never to read a marriage self-help book.

5. Thanks to this person, my life will never be the same. Wow.

I’m Getting Tired of Starting Again Somewhere New

News: A verbal punch to the gut and my face is pale, my eyes are full of tears and another threatening cloud of darkness takes over my blue sky.

Please let it pass me by.

Fault Lines Should Be Worn With Pride

Love: I've fallen into it and I can't get up. Damn.

Letting Me Be Myself

Sometimes, giving up seems worth it.

Last Night In the Parking Lot

1. I have to get things right this time.

2. I will be going nowhere fast.

3. Are you trying to make this difficult?

4. I guess I'm lacking that vibrance you seek.

5. I just can't handle it.

6. Please, make me brave.

7. Use your fucking brain.

8. I need this more than anything.

They Carted Me Off

I wish too much sometimes.

...And The Worms Ate Into His Brain

"I, the miserable and the abandoned, am an abortion, to be spurned at, and kicked, and trampled on."

-The monster, Frankenstein by Mary Shelley

Close Your Brown Eyes And Lay Down Next To Me

1. Why do best friends always mean well but do annoying things?

2. I can't let this get the best of me.

3. How do you make a beautiful person (who doesn't know how beautiful they are) realize you exist?

4. Drastic action is so NOT my style.

5. What's the worst that could happen?

6. Besides, you know, all my hopes and dreams being crushed.

7. Hopes and dreams I barely have.

8. Can I take any more heartbreak (in any way shape or form)?

9. I can't be sure of anything anymore.

10. Uncertainty is a paralyzing venom.

I’m Sorry I Was Bringing You Down

It's funny how you can think you're happy

and then you remember something you wanted to forget

and the thing that made you happy no longer matters anymore.

Sweat Turns To Cold

Is it possible for something to be so good it makes you nauseous?

I'm Still Restless

Someday

I'll have an interesting life

And you'll want to read this.




Who knows? Maybe you'll have to pay.

Never Coming Home

1. I've got to get out of this place.

2. Kiss to kill- now there's a thought!

3. I've contemplated the merits of dirty jpegs sent via email. I also contemplated the wonders of mass email forwarding.

4. I don't understand my fellow women, nevermind men.

5. "Ever get the feeling that you're never all alone?"

6. Bless mutual friends, they let you vent and simply agree.

7. Shut up brain- its not her!

8. Then who?

9. Hello, tomorrow.

10. I hate odd numbers.